I'm Back!

Some of you thought I have "popped" because I had no entries for the past few days... well, I am still around, and my little baby is still swimming happily within me. I had not been able to blog for the past few days because I was attending a Schema Therapy Course at GrandCopthorne Hotel during the day and I was so exhausted by evening that I didn't have much energy to do anything else but to laze on my bed. I had wanted to attend the course back in 1999 when it was conducted in Australia, but I was a poor postgraduate student then. I had to give the course a miss because I had difficulties with my daily expenses when I was doing my masters there and I didn't think it was nice to ask my father to transfer more money into my account. Heehee, I am glad that I am still able to attend it after so many years... =)

By the way, if you know me well enough, you know that I usually sms friends and relatives quite frequently... just to find out how they are. I have a friend whom I met when I was in Australia back in 1998. He was my Secondary school friend's younger brother and during that time when I left for Brisbane to do my Masters, his sister contacted me and requested that I kept an eye on him. He's my little sister's age, and even till now I can still recall those times he cycled down to my house to study/ chat after school. Well, we were constantly in contact when we returned to Singapore in 2000, and he was doing really well in his work and love life. He was in this long distant relationship with a Thai girl, and they planned to get married late last year. My dad passed away in June last year. He called to apologize that he was unable to attend the wake because he was getting married at the end of the year, and that he couldn't invite me for his wedding. Well, I was fine with that and I could understand where he was coming from. Neither would I want to bring any ill luck to him. Nevertheless, we drifted apart after that. I had many issues to deal with myself since Dad's passing (e.g., my abortion, Mum's unwell etc etc) and he was probably busy preparing for his wedding. Mum passed away in June this year and he knew it through his sister. He came with his sister to the wake. I asked him about his married life but I was shocked and upset when he told me his wife passed away last year in the car accident when he was driving in Thailand. Life was so unpredictable.. I still remember him feeling so happy and excited about his wedding, and never little would I expect that such an unfortunate thing would happen to him. He did go through a lot of pain and suffering but I believe his family would always be there for him. I didn't know why but I suddenly felt that I needed to sms him yesternight, just to see how he is in general. He replied in his sms that yesterday was his wife's first death anniversary. I felt so sorry. Also I didn't know it's his wife's death anniversary yesterday. I sincerely hope that he could stand up strong again one day.

It's indeed one great loss one could experience in life and it's something not easy to grapple with. I don't know if I were him I could be as strong as him to be able to move on with my life. Somehow his life story has reminded me that it's very important to cherish what one has, and not lament on what one doesn't have. Try not to make comparisons to create stress and distress for self and if possible, be contented with self and life.. no one and no life is perfect..