Have To Learn To Keep My Cool!

Suddenly I kinda pity my current maid. I don't know why but I have been snapping at her of late. Of course over things that she did wrong. For instance, I asked her help me play with Gareth for a while this morning, and before she left the room, she knocked Gareth's head against the door! Arrrgh!

I realized that I seemed to be screaming at her the whole day. It's no good for her and myself I guess. I get angry with her easily maybe because I have already planned to send her back. Or maybe because I am still upset over the incidents that happened on the first two days she started work at my place. Otherwise, she does housework robotically fine. I know she isn't an easy maid. Neither is she submissive and timid. So I was wrong in my judgement when I first saw her. Yup! Never judge a book by its cover. She's now pretty careful in her movements at home and if I were to scold her, she would talk back at times still. I guess she may not be suitable in my household, she may do well in other households (e.g., those angmos who allow their maids to do things their way and to talk back).

Yesterday I got maid to play with Greg at Fidgets when I had to breastfeed Gareth. After we left the place,

Greg: Mummy, JieJie never sleep is it?

Mummy: You mean JieJie never sleep last night?

Greg: Ya. I think so. Just now when JieJie play with me at the playground, she says she's tired and she doesn't want to play anymore.

Mummy: JieJie told you she's tired and doesn't want to play?

Greg nodded.

Mummy: JieJie last night slept even earlier than you. And even more than Mummy. Not possible for her to have not enough sleep.

Greg: Ohhh... then why is she so tired?

Mummy: I don't know. Maybe she doesn't like the playground.

Greg: I like the playground you know Mummy. Maybe we come back next time with Daddy and JooYi. Just leave JieJie at home..

So I guess Greg doesn't seem to like Maid at all. However, when KengYong and I were around, she seemed to be better in playing with Greg (e.g., fixing train tracks, building lego etc) now. Maybe she's just pretending. I don't know. Anyway, we are just waiting for more biodata from our agency before we choose our next replacement maid. Hmmm..maybe it's better to go maidless..so frustrating and if this goes on, I think I will age very fast. =(