Some Thoughts..

Greg was sent to school today. Surprisingly, he didn't wail this morning when he left the house. However, I did hear that he cried in school when KengYong left him there. Somehow, the house seems empty without his presence. I feel odd. Hopefully, he gets adjusted to his usual school routine in no time.

Today is my cousin's wedding. Sigh... I cannot attend her wedding dinner as I am still doing my confinement after birth. I still remember the day when I went down to Mum's house during my lunchtime and Mum received a call from my sixth uncle to say that my cousin is getting married. I could see that Mum was so happy for her, but soon after, Mum commented that she may not live long enough to be present at her wedding. She's indeed right, as she ended her battle six months ago. However, I still remember trying to dispute what she said, and kept encouraging her to fight on. I wasn't in denial then but I was hoping so hard for miracles to happen. Miracles do happen, don't they?

Time really flies. Mum's away for half a year and Dad's away for one and half year. I wasn't present at that crucial point of time when both left the world. I had to be informed to rush down to hospital in both cases, and by the time I arrived, they had departed. Departed without saying any last words to me. Quite upset whenever I think about all these. Their absence during birth of Gareth and my confinement was greatly felt. I am grateful to have supportive siblings and genuinely concerned relatives as well as friends who have made my past 12 days bearable. Thank you all so so much.

How nice if Mum and Pa are around.. I believe they would be so proud of the new addition in the family, Gareth and the rest of their 6 grandchildren. Hmmm... maybe Greg shouldn't go to school today. Without him around, I seem to have time to think more..